pushed against a cookie cutter

You want a pillar to lean on when your feet are trembling. You hug your humungous teddy bear when everyone else around you fails to give you the much-needed bear hug. You want music to keep your company when you travel alone. And at the end of the day, you want someone to hear your stories, remedy your worries and be your diary.
Friends walk in and out of our lives and only some of them are honoured to be your confession-hearer, your conscience keeper  or the diary. And all the while, you keep leaning on the person hoping that  that he or she will be by your side forever.
Sometimes, these pillars can collapse and your confessions can go unheard. Worse still, the diary will be closed against your face when you are about to pour your heart into it. Movements such as these, as unexpected as they may be, make you feel guilty even when you are not the culprit.
Be it a steady friendship or an ordinary one, it is not the relationships that change, but the people who are in them. Whether it is a love affair or a friendship, its base gets shattered the moment your ego wins over the love for your friend.
Friendship will never be the same again the moment you start accusing your friend for the things he/she hasn’t done. it is not an act of a friend to push you against a cookie-cutter  and order  you to get the shape he/she wants to see you in.
Letting people into your life is like letting people into your house. Some people come to your doorstep. Some are allowed in. your parents, siblings and a few friends are allowed to walk into your messy little bedroom.  But you wouldn’t let anyone cross your bathroom territories. Likewise, defining territories of trust and love is a way of saving yourself from the pain of being let down by your so-called friends.
Those who cut you down without a rational reason are the ones who have got tired of showing you a fake-friendly face, when all this while they had been judging your action and trying to rewrite your life according to their scripts. when the change hits you hard, you wonder how much of the fun you had together was actually true, and how many of those compliments were mere flattery.
Not everyone can be conscience keepers. A conscience-keeper never glories in the emotional supremacy he or she holds over the other; nor does he holds it above a bottomless pit threateningly, until you do to his behest.
This is where the quasi-conscience keepers go wrong. Unlike true friends, they cannot bear it when you become more self-sufficient and emotionally least dependent on them. This strike a huge blow on their ego, as a result of which they drop you like a hot potato.
Before there is a next time, define your dependency territories. Never let anyone come beyond that to toy with your hyper-sensitive emotions. After all, high- security zones are still very much the fashion in the country!